Personal Narrative: Extreme Anxiety

When fear is something that dictated your every decision it can feel crippling. For many years I suffered from extreme anxiety. This anxiety would take over every aspect of my life making me missable stuck in my own head, in the fear. It got so bad I would be in physical pain because of it . Two years ago I started passing out with no explanation everywhere and there was not a common thread to link them together. Many people said I did not eat enough or drink water or it was hot. This was not the case. I had many tests done and they had no idea what was going on and slapped a gerencia name on my condition with no answer. The name was vasovagal, basically, they said my blood did not pump into my brain fast enough and it can cause people to …show more content…
I remember waking up and seeing people yelling at me if I was okay and then the fire department came and I felt so overwhelmed and like it was a bad dream. The feeling of not being able to control one's body is terrifying. Every since this event I thought if I did not have to do anything stressful it would go away and I would not have to deal with it, and it did, but I missed my sports and joy in life so much that I decided to not let the fear ruin it for me and face it. Even though it was really hard because of course the anxiety was still there and I had no way of making it go away. I tried everything yoga reading books, meditating and anything else pretty much, but I came down to one conclusion you can't let fear dictate who you are going to be. I had to live with the fact that it would always be there and get over it because that seemed like the only thing I could do to deal with the fear. I tried just admitting to people and myself I was afraid and stop denying git like it was a horrible problem that many people, ut a stigma on mental illness. When I owned my fear I felt freer from it. It was still there, but it did not have the same kinda power over like it used to where it would dictate what I would and would not do based on that I did not want to deal with the