It takes a lot of courage to be honest with yourself. To look the truth deep into the eyes no matter how daunting it may be. There are times when we must look into our past so that we can feel good about it, so that we can observe the past with a mild wonder and a calm attitude.
Realising what lies beneath your conscious self is the toughest thing. Introspection requires an uncorrupt mind and a lot of guts, it's really hard, but if you are able to find what you were looking for, life becomes easier.
It was 2nd of July, before that we traversed the journey of us being relative to somewhat good friends. Something happened that day, may be you were vulnerable, may be we both were drunk, may be I was disturbed because you were not content, endless possibilities( including my feelings for you which no one believes!) Things changed after that and that also drastically. I proposed, you declined, I reasoned, you were firm, I left with a heavy heart. You had your reasons - related to your past relationship as well as my past ( Tanu). Than there were family issues. All genuine concerns, may be what I explained you about Tanu was not logical, and it's understandable because its not what you are inside, but what you do that defines you! I was blank and lost for the next few days, approached you again, things got moving with endless obstacles ( bhaiya bhabhi, my family, my Exam, your uncertainty). You know everything that happened after that, so no point repeating that. Life was great, everything was going with the speed of a bullet train, suddenly one morning it derailed! Just like that. May be that is what happens when you drive bullet trains on Indian tracks. Than there was delhi and obviously cyber hub Gurgaon, I behaved immaturely and misbehaved. I shouldn't have. Sorry for that! May be some people are never insane except on the occasions when their heart was touched. Life has changed so much, we used to talk for hours, now we hardly message each other. Gradually we both will be lost in our lives and may be will meet at some family gathering. May be sometimes we ( or may be I only ) will peep into each others fb albums as how are we doing in our lives. My Love, care , respect for you means nothing. Life is ruthless. These 2 months were one of the happiest of my life despite all the ups and downs. …show more content…
The journey of you being shweta to Panda to Kashaf to maybe Shweta again was beautiful. We must remember that all the happiness has a rider attached to it: it ends, So does all the sadness! Sometimes I feel like these drags in life are like the drags of a Marlboro after 2 pegs of daaru, without them drinking is not worth it, same goes with life. We realise the importance of something only when we are being deprived of that something. …show more content…
I have observed a constant guilt in you all the time we used to talk. Being a witness of that guilt, I can assure you that your feelings for Aayush are pure and genuine, but the greater the love, the greater the tragedy when its over! Don't let this apply to you. Things as trivial as some stupid baba doesn't sanction your relationship should not be the reason of your lifelong regret. So make up your mind ( if you haven't already) , identity your emotions, and if you think its worth it, by all means go for it. Remember if its worth it, it won't be easy. There are far too many ordinary things in our ordinary life, love shouldn't be one of them. Of course the people you love and care about deserve your honesty, sincerity and commitment. But at the same time you are deserving as well, you are deserving of the honesty you give to others. You are deserving of the peace that comes with love. So once in a while also think about the commitment and sincerity you deserve. Ask Aayush to honour the commitment that he made to you and put in sincere efforts . If he can't convince his own parents than he shouldn't have made the commitment
Realising what lies beneath your conscious self is the toughest thing. Introspection requires an uncorrupt mind and a lot of guts, it's really hard, but if you are able to find what you were looking for, life becomes easier.
It was 2nd of July, before that we traversed the journey of us being relative to somewhat good friends. Something happened that day, may be you were vulnerable, may be we both were drunk, may be I was disturbed because you were not content, endless possibilities( including my feelings for you which no one believes!) Things changed after that and that also drastically. I proposed, you declined, I reasoned, you were firm, I left with a heavy heart. You had your reasons - related to your past relationship as well as my past ( Tanu). Than there were family issues. All genuine concerns, may be what I explained you about Tanu was not logical, and it's understandable because its not what you are inside, but what you do that defines you! I was blank and lost for the next few days, approached you again, things got moving with endless obstacles ( bhaiya bhabhi, my family, my Exam, your uncertainty). You know everything that happened after that, so no point repeating that. Life was great, everything was going with the speed of a bullet train, suddenly one morning it derailed! Just like that. May be that is what happens when you drive bullet trains on Indian tracks. Than there was delhi and obviously cyber hub Gurgaon, I behaved immaturely and misbehaved. I shouldn't have. Sorry for that! May be some people are never insane except on the occasions when their heart was touched. Life has changed so much, we used to talk for hours, now we hardly message each other. Gradually we both will be lost in our lives and may be will meet at some family gathering. May be sometimes we ( or may be I only ) will peep into each others fb albums as how are we doing in our lives. My Love, care , respect for you means nothing. Life is ruthless. These 2 months were one of the happiest of my life despite all the ups and downs. …show more content…
The journey of you being shweta to Panda to Kashaf to maybe Shweta again was beautiful. We must remember that all the happiness has a rider attached to it: it ends, So does all the sadness! Sometimes I feel like these drags in life are like the drags of a Marlboro after 2 pegs of daaru, without them drinking is not worth it, same goes with life. We realise the importance of something only when we are being deprived of that something. …show more content…
I have observed a constant guilt in you all the time we used to talk. Being a witness of that guilt, I can assure you that your feelings for Aayush are pure and genuine, but the greater the love, the greater the tragedy when its over! Don't let this apply to you. Things as trivial as some stupid baba doesn't sanction your relationship should not be the reason of your lifelong regret. So make up your mind ( if you haven't already) , identity your emotions, and if you think its worth it, by all means go for it. Remember if its worth it, it won't be easy. There are far too many ordinary things in our ordinary life, love shouldn't be one of them. Of course the people you love and care about deserve your honesty, sincerity and commitment. But at the same time you are deserving as well, you are deserving of the honesty you give to others. You are deserving of the peace that comes with love. So once in a while also think about the commitment and sincerity you deserve. Ask Aayush to honour the commitment that he made to you and put in sincere efforts . If he can't convince his own parents than he shouldn't have made the commitment