Mom
My whole life I lived with my mom and I can notice little things …show more content…
Not that I ever lived with him before, my mom, sister and I would occasionally see him on the holidays and random times during the week. During these past years we don’t see him anymore, the reason for this is he has had a secret life where he started seeing other people. After finding out about my dad 's secret affairs, my perspective of guys started to change. I went to having many crushes to suddenly not being into anyone at all. Whereas back then, I wouldn 't mind starting a relationship if someone was actually into me, but now I 'm very cautiousoo. My reason for being conscious may have been because of this event or due to the fact I 've grown up. Growing up also changes us mentally. Being a part of a relationship is not important to me as much as developing friendship with others. I also now prefer to become friends with someone for a couple years before going straight into a relationship so I can see if I have a future with them. If I wasn 't this way, I would trust people more and go with it instead of overthinking things and focusing on just the negative. I like to have a plan ooo and make sure the outcome comes out the way I …show more content…
Till this day, my lack of faith in myself would pop in and out of my mind. This lack of faith wasn 't based on deciding an occupation; it came from other things in life. When I felt down or anger my mind would tell myself things like: You 're useless. Why are you living on this planet? You have no future. etc. Every time I had these thoughts, I would lock myself away from anyone and just bawl into tears. It was definitely not the best feeling, but it was something I had to suck up. Like the saying goes “The saddest people smile the brightest.” If I didn 't have trouble believing in myself, I think I would be more open to sharing my