Personal Narrative: My Definition Of God

For a middle class, mostly raised as white, American, it’s safe to say I’ve had quite the brush in with Christianity’s definition of God. More than that actually. Most of my family’s life was spent in the Midwest. Ohio to be exact. While my parents and I were hopping around the whole United States on military standby, the rest of my family on my dad’s side was, has been, and always will be, a part of a very cult like denomination of Christian church. When we finally settled in Ohio, after my dad got released, we began regularly attending it. There I learned a very different God than I know today. There I was introduced to what I would spend nearly every day wrestling with for a very, very long time. My conceptions of God started off obviously very conservative. Almost more extreme than commonly viewed conservative opinions of the Christian divine I would say. God started out as a male figure, above all, deciding my behavior, clothing, pass-times, and future career. The only savior to not getting completely indoctrinated was my mom, who was raised secular. We were not supposed to watch Television at all, my mom allowed us to. We were supposed to wear …show more content…
God to me was a being that encompassed all I hated about my life and myself, all that I wanted to reject and leave. Then, over time and over many different means of understanding, God became a father. Then, a parent. Then, a being who is just a part of me as my own conscious. God became everyone, and resided in everyone. God became just as important as everyone, and everyone became just as important as a god. I’m excited to see where my understanding will take me next and how the vastness of creation and science and humanities will further that understanding. I hope to accomplish growth in this year. I hope to accomplish patience and the restraint to listen to the raw perceptions of others. I hope to see a new God just as glorious and ineffable as the being the being I used to