The news from the world around Anne impacts her way of thinking tremendously; hearing stories of other Jews and the viscous Germans creates a loss of hope. Hearing what the Germans are doing to the Jews and their …show more content…
Anne believes that because she knows there is a great chance of death, it is better to not care, this is mostly provoked by her excruciating mental illnesses. She no longer cares and is so neutral to the topic as her anxiety and depression progresses. At the beginning of her diary, she is fearful of death and would do anything to get out of a deadly condition. Learning and understanding the news and other Jews, her thoughts replay on carelessness instead of determination. “A deathly oppressive silence hangs over the house and clings to me as if it were going to drag me into the deepest regions of the underworld,” (Frank def. Oct. 29, 1943). This is a clear example of the insensitivity and darkness surrounding her. At some points, she explicitly shows her death wish; “I’ve asked myself time and time again whether it would have been better if we hadn’t gone into hiding, if we were dead now and didn’t have to go through this misery,” (Frank def. May 26, 1944). Occasionally she gives little, unsure details, but suggests the same, “If only it were all over,” (Frank def. 260). Nevertheless, Anne is still numb and this is seen straightforward throughout the book, “I’ve reached a point where I hardly care if I live or die,” (Frank def. 181). While some may say that Anne believes she will live because she will not give up these large hopes and aspirations to be a writer, she truly uses those ambitions as a healthy outlet, in order to seek a little light in the darkness of the world suffocating her. Being struck with mental illness takes a toll on everything in a person’s life, and this is no exception for Anne