Research Paper On Paranoia

"Everyone is out to get me"

I have lived with fear for so many years. Every night I lock my room in case someone tries to come in and attack me. On my daily walks to work, the sense of being follow persist in my head even though I play music while walking to soothe my anxieties. Once I sit on my desk the fear that something bad will happen starts its vicious cycle, maybe my co-workers are talking behind my back, I feel threatened, insecure, and awkward.

During the past year my therapist has develop a good strategy to help me confront any feelings of persecution and mistrust of people by putting words on the experience. Instead of judging the lack of awareness, I'd just say "Fear has enveloped me" as just a thought, not an action. It is rather complicated to act intuitively from a wise mind. To feel that every single conversation is aimed at you when it was something completely different, heightens anxiety to such level they can become persecutory delusions. I experience paranoia every single day. It is a transient episode of psychosis, where I must control myself or else I will end up in the hospital once again. …show more content…
I have learned to leave out comparisons, judgement and assumptions. It is difficult to manage the time spent on Twitter or Facebook, but slowly I've been obtaining a better grasp pf every situation rather than jumping to conclusions. When this little absolute thinking of mine starts shifting me into a dark corner, I'd grab a camera and try to capture through and image all those feelings of paranoia entrap in me. Within the long voyages of my thoughts, I can set myself free of fear; fear of getting in a car accident, of being kidnapped, sleeping in peace without suffering from night terrors, or locking my room in case mother grabs a butcher knife with the intention of killing