Middle School Mid-Life Crisis
Middle school, a time of cringe worthy moments and regret. I like to refer to this story as my “Middle School Mid-Life Crisis”, since I questioned the purpose of going to school almost every day, and never felt motivated to do anything. Dreading almost every day of school, not having stable mental, emotional, or physical health, and feeling dissatisfied with myself as a student. My mind set was always on countdown mode, “I just have to make it through this class period. I only have 20 more problems to do.” There was not a moment where I could enjoy the present. There is no denial of how much of a mess I was all throughout 6th, 7th, and a portion of 8th grade.
It wasn't really clear when these indolent habits began. During sixth grade, I was presumably dedicated to my academic life. Everything was running smoothly with good grades, although once seventh grade rolled around, all of that went down the drain. Homework and projects were being adjourned. When beginning an assignment, I would get distracted and question "Is there even a purpose to this? This is completely irrelevant!" Due to the constant stalling I would end up finishing homework late at night and become sleep deprived. I would also tend to lose focus during school and …show more content…
My mom constantly nagged at me, saying things like, “What are you doing with your life??” or “You're going to be a failure!” This is when reality hit me like a bus. My mother losing faith in me this was also the time where everyone applied for the high school they wanted to go to. Everything that I’ve done so far wasn’t what I wanted to be. I knew I couldn't let anyone down. I stopped slacking off and doing my homework with a lot of effort. Studying each night wasn’t fun, but it’s what had to be done. My grades finally shot back up. I realized the satisfaction of completing homework and getting good grades made me feel like I accomplished
Middle school, a time of cringe worthy moments and regret. I like to refer to this story as my “Middle School Mid-Life Crisis”, since I questioned the purpose of going to school almost every day, and never felt motivated to do anything. Dreading almost every day of school, not having stable mental, emotional, or physical health, and feeling dissatisfied with myself as a student. My mind set was always on countdown mode, “I just have to make it through this class period. I only have 20 more problems to do.” There was not a moment where I could enjoy the present. There is no denial of how much of a mess I was all throughout 6th, 7th, and a portion of 8th grade.
It wasn't really clear when these indolent habits began. During sixth grade, I was presumably dedicated to my academic life. Everything was running smoothly with good grades, although once seventh grade rolled around, all of that went down the drain. Homework and projects were being adjourned. When beginning an assignment, I would get distracted and question "Is there even a purpose to this? This is completely irrelevant!" Due to the constant stalling I would end up finishing homework late at night and become sleep deprived. I would also tend to lose focus during school and …show more content…
My mom constantly nagged at me, saying things like, “What are you doing with your life??” or “You're going to be a failure!” This is when reality hit me like a bus. My mother losing faith in me this was also the time where everyone applied for the high school they wanted to go to. Everything that I’ve done so far wasn’t what I wanted to be. I knew I couldn't let anyone down. I stopped slacking off and doing my homework with a lot of effort. Studying each night wasn’t fun, but it’s what had to be done. My grades finally shot back up. I realized the satisfaction of completing homework and getting good grades made me feel like I accomplished