One day at home, I was getting ready to go to my new school. Sitting below my mother as I stared at the ruby red carpet as she styled my hair for the day. "Remember to ALWAYS be on your best behavior, Remiah. This is one of the best schools in the area you're going to. I had to work hard to get you here." I simply responded to her with a "Yes, ma'am" and went back to staring down at the ground. While completely silent on the outside, I was screaming on the inside. "I don't want to go to a new school!" I heard a voice inside my head say. "What if nobody likes me?" "What if I mess this up?" All these thoughts circle around each other in my head, fighting for their voice to be the loudest. I come out of the trance when my mother pats me on the shoulder, signaling that she is finished. I stand up, dusting some of the hair off and grabbed my backpack. I then approached our screen door, taking a quick deep breath and made my way towards our family car. I opened the door to the passenger seat and sat there, deep in thought while waiting for my mother. “Tell her that you want to go back.” I heard myself say. As my mouth opened, no words came out of it. I only sat there, being woken out my …show more content…
I remember coming to school Monday morning and being called down to the office during the second period. There was the principal alongside a police officer. "Please take a seat, this will not take up much of your time." The principal says, gesturing me to his personal office. They explained to me what happened to my friend during the weekend. I was interrogated on everything, including my relationship with Nat and what I knew about him. While the interrogation lasted twenty minutes, it felt forever. I became sick with worry for Nat, praying that he would get through this. Nat had a difficult life. His parents were abusive, and he had to deal with students and teachers alike bullying him. Later that day, I went home and stayed in my bedroom for the rest of the day. I stared up at the ceiling, wondering what the point of life was when there is constant suffering. I heard a vibration from my phone. I take it out of my pocket and see that its Lisa calling me. "Did you hear what happened to Nat?" She says. "Yes," I replied. She stays silent for a moment, before saying something that will make me lose it. "You know this is all your fault, right?" For the first time, I became livid. I felt my chest burning as I clenched my fists. "How the hell is this my fault!? You've always used him! I stood by him while you threw him aside like trash when you were done using him!" At that point,