There are two major phases of my life after I have consciousness and basic cognition to the world. The first phase is called "the era of ignorance and blindness". Like most children, I neither have the intelligence to solve problems quickly and precisely without assistance, nor being patient enough to acquire the ways to be erudite.
Even worse, I even don't have the sense of embarrassment or the awareness to the moral. I am intelligent enough, more precisely, cunning enough to accomplish some of my little tricks of stealth whereas my academic work remained crappy. One time, I ate the food of the person sitting next to me when no one was in the classroom. After being found out that I am guilty for eating other's food, I …show more content…
This was the first time that I had the feeling of being embarrassed by your deed in your early life. Moreover, this feeling kept torturing me even now. I could still clearly remember the first time that I have this sense of guilty: I was doing homework - a mandarin essay - when I was taking a rest by staggering around, I glanced at by belly, round and bouncy because of the abundance of lipid, I could suddenly recalled that I was proud of my obesity, and I always show my belly around and say, "Look, I am better than you." Then, laughter from others came to me, although I was home and nobody were present in the house. Struggling to forget about this, I started to think positively, but another embarrassing moment came into my mind… Until now, I am stuck into the paradox making yourself