Finding My Peace
When I was 16 I found true peace in my life, it came unexpected and when it did come it broke my heart. I found peace when I moved out of my mother’s house, after years of suffering under her roof I felt freedom. To understand why I felt peace for leaving home you have to understand what I went through during my middle and high school years. My mom has many problems with her mind and what she did to compensate with her own thoughts.
Before I tell my story on how I found peace I first need to say how much I love my mother, I love her more than words can describe but as the years went on it became harder and harder to love someone who is breaking you. My mom has mental problems, over the years she used prescription drugs and …show more content…
At first I didn’t think anything of it, that’s where I made my first mistake. She came out of the bathroom back into the kitchen where we continued to bake, then I realized that there was red spots on the white floor. I instantly got upset and started screaming “Really mom! We were having a great time, what did you do?” she replied with “Nothing, I didn’t do anything” I said “Than why is there blood on the floor” she automatically shot back that is was food coloring. I said “Please show me the food coloring” she handed me a bag with a bunch of food coloring, I threw it back “There is no red food coloring in here mom” She handed me another box, by this point I am very upset because we actually having a good moment and I was happy with my mother for the first time in weeks. The new box of food coloring that she had handed me wasn’t even open I than said “This isn’t even open mother!” I looked at my step-dad from across the room and told him that I need to take a walk. He let me leave the house because he could see how upset I was with the situation and understood how I relied on these couple of hours of clarity with my mom to push through the bad months with
When I was 16 I found true peace in my life, it came unexpected and when it did come it broke my heart. I found peace when I moved out of my mother’s house, after years of suffering under her roof I felt freedom. To understand why I felt peace for leaving home you have to understand what I went through during my middle and high school years. My mom has many problems with her mind and what she did to compensate with her own thoughts.
Before I tell my story on how I found peace I first need to say how much I love my mother, I love her more than words can describe but as the years went on it became harder and harder to love someone who is breaking you. My mom has mental problems, over the years she used prescription drugs and …show more content…
At first I didn’t think anything of it, that’s where I made my first mistake. She came out of the bathroom back into the kitchen where we continued to bake, then I realized that there was red spots on the white floor. I instantly got upset and started screaming “Really mom! We were having a great time, what did you do?” she replied with “Nothing, I didn’t do anything” I said “Than why is there blood on the floor” she automatically shot back that is was food coloring. I said “Please show me the food coloring” she handed me a bag with a bunch of food coloring, I threw it back “There is no red food coloring in here mom” She handed me another box, by this point I am very upset because we actually having a good moment and I was happy with my mother for the first time in weeks. The new box of food coloring that she had handed me wasn’t even open I than said “This isn’t even open mother!” I looked at my step-dad from across the room and told him that I need to take a walk. He let me leave the house because he could see how upset I was with the situation and understood how I relied on these couple of hours of clarity with my mom to push through the bad months with