This week’s topic was a very emotional one that not many people like to think about. I personally, am not scared of my own death. I can die today and I would be okay with how I lived my life so far. It has not been the most exciting life so far, but I have a family who I love and friends that I care for with all my heart. So thinking about my own death is not something that keeps me up at night. Honestly, like what Stuart talked about in class I too have had moments in my life where I have thought of my own death. I have never had suicide ideations, but I do think about how easily I could die. I could step in front of a car and die, but I do not think that I could ever be capable of doing that. Yet, I do understand how some people can get feel so low that suicide is their only way out. Another big topic we talked about was the fear of loss.
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I am definitely terrified of my parents and sister dying. Like one of my group members said in-group, I depend on my parents/sister for so much I have no idea how I would survive without them. My dog also has just recently turned nine years old and literally the thought of dog getting older can make me cry. In my mind, if I were to experience a death soon it would be my dog. I cannot fathom how I would even react, because I have had her since she was only four days old. She is like my actual baby and is always there whenever I feel sad. I also have never experienced any death in my family yet so I do not have any experiences that will let me know I’ll be okay if it happens. However, it was really great to be able to see how our leader Carly has dealt and is dealing with loss. Even though it is obviously still painful for Carly to speak about her mom’s death and the fear of her dad dying I thought she was really strong and brave. It made me heart go out to her, because these fears are so present in her life. A part of my life I would also like to share is about my best friend. About two years ago, my best friend Jocelyn had to get surgeries for an unknown medical problem. Her medical problem was later diagnosed with cervical stenosis, which pretty much means her uterus is practically closed. This is really bad of course, because period blood cannot come out of her uterus like it is suppose to. Two years ago, Jocelyn had to go to the emergency for serious stomach/cramp problems. That same day she had surgery to take out blood clots that were in her uterus that were causing her pain. As well as, doing something to try to keep her uterus open and working normally. After that she was hospitalized for two weeks with extreme pain for most her stay there. Something else Jocelyn suffers with is depression and ADHD, which has also affected her life and mine. I honestly just don’t want her to be sad, I have been experienced some of her depression periods and I always feel so powerless. I don’t how to help her or what I can say to make her feel better. Recently her doctor told Jocelyn that the surgery they did to her uterus did not work and her uterus is once again closed. They are not sure whether they
I am definitely terrified of my parents and sister dying. Like one of my group members said in-group, I depend on my parents/sister for so much I have no idea how I would survive without them. My dog also has just recently turned nine years old and literally the thought of dog getting older can make me cry. In my mind, if I were to experience a death soon it would be my dog. I cannot fathom how I would even react, because I have had her since she was only four days old. She is like my actual baby and is always there whenever I feel sad. I also have never experienced any death in my family yet so I do not have any experiences that will let me know I’ll be okay if it happens. However, it was really great to be able to see how our leader Carly has dealt and is dealing with loss. Even though it is obviously still painful for Carly to speak about her mom’s death and the fear of her dad dying I thought she was really strong and brave. It made me heart go out to her, because these fears are so present in her life. A part of my life I would also like to share is about my best friend. About two years ago, my best friend Jocelyn had to get surgeries for an unknown medical problem. Her medical problem was later diagnosed with cervical stenosis, which pretty much means her uterus is practically closed. This is really bad of course, because period blood cannot come out of her uterus like it is suppose to. Two years ago, Jocelyn had to go to the emergency for serious stomach/cramp problems. That same day she had surgery to take out blood clots that were in her uterus that were causing her pain. As well as, doing something to try to keep her uterus open and working normally. After that she was hospitalized for two weeks with extreme pain for most her stay there. Something else Jocelyn suffers with is depression and ADHD, which has also affected her life and mine. I honestly just don’t want her to be sad, I have been experienced some of her depression periods and I always feel so powerless. I don’t how to help her or what I can say to make her feel better. Recently her doctor told Jocelyn that the surgery they did to her uterus did not work and her uterus is once again closed. They are not sure whether they