Personal Narrative: My Personal Philosophy In Life

As I observe my journal entries, I notice if I am not feeling happy then most of my entries I either express being tired or a feeling of neutrality. As a full-time student and as someone who works part-time my schedule does not change. I have a routine every week and I have to follow it in order to complete all of my work. My main focus in my life right now is to earn an undergraduate degree and I tend to put work outside of school, and relationships second. Most of my attention goes to my assignments and doing well on those assignments. I often feel like it is a necessity to do well. If I do not do well on an assignment then it feels like I did not put enough effort. I often express a fear of failure and I use that fear as a motive to continue …show more content…
Individuals are responsible for their own responsible agent and we determine our own development. There is usually a stereotype that people who like existentialism that they are usually people who are gloomy, go through “existential angst,” because there is lack of definition of an individual’s purpose in life and whether the experience of life mean anything at all. As people, we generally try to identify ourselves with a label and try to make sense of the life that occurs around us. Existentialism often examines why we feel like we need a label and when we are no longer able to identify ourselves with a label we often feel sadness. Existentialism observes the complexities of freedom of choice, responsibility, and consequences. Although some people may find it to be a negative way to think, I find that there is a sense of comfort of not knowing one’s purpose. It allows for exploration and learning about yourself as a person. I do not think of it as negative. There are certain aspects in life individuals do not have control in and it is their job to make their own decisions and then be responsible for those …show more content…
I remember creating a plan when I was a teenager, thinking it was bulletproof. I believed I was going to follow and accomplish everything I wrote on that list. Once I left high school and entered college I quickly realized that I did not want to pursue a career in this field. Since that experience I never created a specific list of what accomplishments I would like to achieve. I would not say I have no objectives or goals in life. I want to finish my undergraduate degree, I want to continue my education in a graduate program, and travel. However, I also learned that change happens and to accept changes. Although it is important to have goals, it is also important to not be afraid of change and not feel fear when change happens. Change and experience allows for personal growth. Having an existential influence helps me understand that I do not have control of every aspect in my life, but I can control my own actions and determine how I want to grow as a person. I am not sure what my life purpose is, but I am content with not knowing and experiencing life as it plays