“What the hell, Tony?” Bucky could hear Steve’s voice through the wall even if he didn’t have his ear pressed against it like a petulant teen trying to overhear his parents.
Tony doesn’t respond quickly enough, so Steve barges onwards. “You can’t do shit like that. What were you thinking? Jesus. You were trying to provoke him, weren’t you?”
“I was trying to get some ice cream,” Tony responds levelly.
“Stop lying.”
“Judging by the way he reacted, it didn’t affect him at all.”
“Holy shit, Tony, you are acting like a child. Jesus. You don’t think he’s gone through enough? Could you not have handled this like an adult? What did you expect? No, hold on, I know. You expected to finally have someone to blame for all your issues. But you know what, Tony? That wasn’t him and you don’t have anyone to blame but yourself.”
But it was me.
“He killed my mom,” Tony says, so quietly that even Bucky’s enhanced ears have to strain to hear it.
“I know.” Steve sighs and Bucky can practically hear him deflate. “I know, Tony. But you can’t… God. I can’t believe you.”
“You know you can.”
Steve sighs again.
“I’m sorry, Cap.”
“Me too.”
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It’s stilted, pained. “Your dad, uh… your dad remembered me.” He exhales slowly through his lips as he gathers his thoughts. “He… he called me ‘Sergeant Barnes’ before I… and… I didn’t even blink. Must’ve, uh, must’ve been pretty fucking awful to be killed by a ghost.” He absently curls his metal fingers into a fist and touches it with his right hand. Cold. “I know Steve said it wasn’t me who did that, but…” He shuts his eyes. “I still did it. And I remember them now. I remember every little detail, every damn thing.” He angrily rubs his eyes and opens them again. “But I just… I did… I hurt so many people and it gnaws at me every day but… I can’t explain it. There’s a, a disconnect. I have the memories but I can’t link them to me now. Maybe because if I do then I’d go crazy.” He bites his lips. “I don’t know. I
Tony doesn’t respond quickly enough, so Steve barges onwards. “You can’t do shit like that. What were you thinking? Jesus. You were trying to provoke him, weren’t you?”
“I was trying to get some ice cream,” Tony responds levelly.
“Stop lying.”
“Judging by the way he reacted, it didn’t affect him at all.”
“Holy shit, Tony, you are acting like a child. Jesus. You don’t think he’s gone through enough? Could you not have handled this like an adult? What did you expect? No, hold on, I know. You expected to finally have someone to blame for all your issues. But you know what, Tony? That wasn’t him and you don’t have anyone to blame but yourself.”
But it was me.
“He killed my mom,” Tony says, so quietly that even Bucky’s enhanced ears have to strain to hear it.
“I know.” Steve sighs and Bucky can practically hear him deflate. “I know, Tony. But you can’t… God. I can’t believe you.”
“You know you can.”
Steve sighs again.
“I’m sorry, Cap.”
“Me too.”
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It’s stilted, pained. “Your dad, uh… your dad remembered me.” He exhales slowly through his lips as he gathers his thoughts. “He… he called me ‘Sergeant Barnes’ before I… and… I didn’t even blink. Must’ve, uh, must’ve been pretty fucking awful to be killed by a ghost.” He absently curls his metal fingers into a fist and touches it with his right hand. Cold. “I know Steve said it wasn’t me who did that, but…” He shuts his eyes. “I still did it. And I remember them now. I remember every little detail, every damn thing.” He angrily rubs his eyes and opens them again. “But I just… I did… I hurt so many people and it gnaws at me every day but… I can’t explain it. There’s a, a disconnect. I have the memories but I can’t link them to me now. Maybe because if I do then I’d go crazy.” He bites his lips. “I don’t know. I