Do you live happily?
Have you ever thought about the end of your life? When I was five, I raised two hamsters, one male and one female. At that time, I did not have any sibling so I really liked them. Especially when they ate their feed, their teeth were so cute that I could not help loving them. One day, I went to Daegu to visit my grandmother and then when I came back home I saw the shocking and horrible scene. That was a corpse of male hamster eaten by female hamster. After that, my mother threw away both of them and I realized how scary death is. At that time, I recognized if I died like hamster I would be thrown away too so I was afraid of death. However, I have been used to death over time because there have been too many news people died. Then one day, suddenly my friend reminded me of fear of death again and I could think about my purpose to live seriously.
Actually, I was a student who lives monotonously. At first, I started day planning my daily schedule. I thought that habit will make my life better. However, actually, I was always pulled by it so that I often got stressed when I could not finished. Next, I received good grade but I have never thought of my future or what is my purpose to do so seriously. As I said, I had obsession that I should finish what I planned today so I studied very hard but there were no reason why I have to do so. My parents always said my life looks too boring and recommended me to live actively having dilettante life. After so long time, I think I was stupid but I did not understand why my life looks so boring to them at that time. Therefore I was tired at my life like the frame of sieve without realizing it. Last summer, suddenly I heard my friend's death. First of all, I was very shocked and I did not want to believe that news because if I admmitted that news I would not be able to see her forever. Unfortunately, however, it was obiously the fact that I cannot deny anymore. I liked her and she does not seem like one who decides to commit suicide so that her death was very shoking to me. Afterward, I could not concentrate on my work for a while and I started to be afraid of death again reminding my experience when I was five. Especially I was afraid of that of people around me. I was always scared that my parents are killed in a traffic accident suddenly or catch a fatal disease. Even though I prayed to overcome it, still was I afraid of that. Later, I heard the reason why she committed suicide, was depression due to experience maladjustment in school. After hearing that, I could sympathize with her because I was also hard at that time. I was no longer a student who receives good grade after entering high school so I was frustrated sometimes. Through these situations, I realized then for the first time I was tired at monotonous life and decided to change it. I started think of what I have to …show more content…
At first, I thought why she had to have decision like that. It was just stress from new school life and I concluded if she had specific goal in her school life at least, she would not have extreme decision, though she got too much stress in her school because of maladjustment in school. However, at this, I realized I also do not have affection at my life like her because I did not have purpose in school life too. It was shocking and I was so afraid of being like her. Afterward, I thought I have to make purpose to study and what I really want to acheive in my life seriously. At first, I thought of what I really seek in my life and soon could I know that is to reveal the truth by myself. As a result, I realized I was desiring to be the one who engages in the press. Finally, I planned specifically what I have to do in my school life to achieve my dream and it was very enjoyable. Through my experience, I learned that if people had their own purpose in their lives, it could be a good motivator to achieve their goals just like I
Have you ever thought about the end of your life? When I was five, I raised two hamsters, one male and one female. At that time, I did not have any sibling so I really liked them. Especially when they ate their feed, their teeth were so cute that I could not help loving them. One day, I went to Daegu to visit my grandmother and then when I came back home I saw the shocking and horrible scene. That was a corpse of male hamster eaten by female hamster. After that, my mother threw away both of them and I realized how scary death is. At that time, I recognized if I died like hamster I would be thrown away too so I was afraid of death. However, I have been used to death over time because there have been too many news people died. Then one day, suddenly my friend reminded me of fear of death again and I could think about my purpose to live seriously.
Actually, I was a student who lives monotonously. At first, I started day planning my daily schedule. I thought that habit will make my life better. However, actually, I was always pulled by it so that I often got stressed when I could not finished. Next, I received good grade but I have never thought of my future or what is my purpose to do so seriously. As I said, I had obsession that I should finish what I planned today so I studied very hard but there were no reason why I have to do so. My parents always said my life looks too boring and recommended me to live actively having dilettante life. After so long time, I think I was stupid but I did not understand why my life looks so boring to them at that time. Therefore I was tired at my life like the frame of sieve without realizing it. Last summer, suddenly I heard my friend's death. First of all, I was very shocked and I did not want to believe that news because if I admmitted that news I would not be able to see her forever. Unfortunately, however, it was obiously the fact that I cannot deny anymore. I liked her and she does not seem like one who decides to commit suicide so that her death was very shoking to me. Afterward, I could not concentrate on my work for a while and I started to be afraid of death again reminding my experience when I was five. Especially I was afraid of that of people around me. I was always scared that my parents are killed in a traffic accident suddenly or catch a fatal disease. Even though I prayed to overcome it, still was I afraid of that. Later, I heard the reason why she committed suicide, was depression due to experience maladjustment in school. After hearing that, I could sympathize with her because I was also hard at that time. I was no longer a student who receives good grade after entering high school so I was frustrated sometimes. Through these situations, I realized then for the first time I was tired at monotonous life and decided to change it. I started think of what I have to …show more content…
At first, I thought why she had to have decision like that. It was just stress from new school life and I concluded if she had specific goal in her school life at least, she would not have extreme decision, though she got too much stress in her school because of maladjustment in school. However, at this, I realized I also do not have affection at my life like her because I did not have purpose in school life too. It was shocking and I was so afraid of being like her. Afterward, I thought I have to make purpose to study and what I really want to acheive in my life seriously. At first, I thought of what I really seek in my life and soon could I know that is to reveal the truth by myself. As a result, I realized I was desiring to be the one who engages in the press. Finally, I planned specifically what I have to do in my school life to achieve my dream and it was very enjoyable. Through my experience, I learned that if people had their own purpose in their lives, it could be a good motivator to achieve their goals just like I