Personal Narrative: My Feelings In Words

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My Feelings in Words I usually worry a lot about how I look and what people think of me. Other people 's opinions, if they 're negative, can really bring me down. I know I shouldn 't let that happen, but doesn 't it occur to everyone? When people look at me weird, almost like there 's something wrong with me, it upsets me. I tend to hide my face in my hands or my hair and keep quiet. When I 'm not hiding my face I put my hands all the way in my sleeves and then leave them sit on my lap. I get angry pretty easily, and I 'm not proud of it but I can admit to it. I get angry over all sorts of things. If I can 't figure out how to do something, like homework, it aggravates me and makes my blood boil. If someone says something to me that upsets me, I can get really aggressive and I will yell and scream at the person. If I get angry enough over something I 'll start crying. If I can 't find something, no matter what time of day it is, I 'll search for it until I find it. If I really can 't find it I 'll get angry with myself and put myself down, and when I …show more content…
I get really bad anxiety in the big crowds in the hallways and I almost always have to have someone walking with me and practically holding me so I don 't freak out. It 's a really scary thing when you feel completely helpless while there are people pushing you around on all sides and the only thing you can hear is this voice in your head screaming out for help and then you feel your throat tighten up and tears stinging your eyes and your chest starts to hurt and it 's almost like there 's water in your lungs. I can barely talk to my teachers, even in private sometimes because it scares me to the point I want to cry and sob in a corner in a ball on the floor. I 'm definitely trying hard to work on it and get better, but it 's a struggle, and it 's one I 'm willing to fight with everything in

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