I'll be happy for the first time in a long time and then come crashing back down. We get to steak n shake and you know something is wrong. I think you asked what was wrong or if something was bothering me. I just say the usual "I'll be fine". You say "promise?" "Promise." Which is a lie. You probably knew that when I said it. We drop Tom off and you try to get me to talk about what's going on. I just say "I don't know". I wanted to talk, but I couldn't. I just couldn't. On the way back to Teriyaki's you try and get me to just talk at all. I'm just not in the mood. We get there I don't say anything. We hugged and that's when I broke. You said something as I walked away. I don't know what but I just gave a thumbs up because if I talked you would know that I was crying. Even though I think you could tell. I get in my car and drive. I think I'm going to kill myself. I'm going to kill myself. I just floored it and just hoped something would happen. Just hoped that the car would veer off the road, maybe hit a tree or a telephone pole and people would just think that it was an accident. But then something changed. I thought of you and Logan. I honestly didn't kill myself because of you and
I'll be happy for the first time in a long time and then come crashing back down. We get to steak n shake and you know something is wrong. I think you asked what was wrong or if something was bothering me. I just say the usual "I'll be fine". You say "promise?" "Promise." Which is a lie. You probably knew that when I said it. We drop Tom off and you try to get me to talk about what's going on. I just say "I don't know". I wanted to talk, but I couldn't. I just couldn't. On the way back to Teriyaki's you try and get me to just talk at all. I'm just not in the mood. We get there I don't say anything. We hugged and that's when I broke. You said something as I walked away. I don't know what but I just gave a thumbs up because if I talked you would know that I was crying. Even though I think you could tell. I get in my car and drive. I think I'm going to kill myself. I'm going to kill myself. I just floored it and just hoped something would happen. Just hoped that the car would veer off the road, maybe hit a tree or a telephone pole and people would just think that it was an accident. But then something changed. I thought of you and Logan. I honestly didn't kill myself because of you and