Life was simple and easy up till seventh grade when everything began to be worse. Walking into class, facing the teasing and scorning toward me from everyone, who thought they were better, prettier, and smarter. …show more content…
I was to the point of suicidal thoughts and actions. So mid-summer I went into the bathroom and tried to overdose. “I just wanted the world to stop and pain to not be as intense.” It didn’t work, someone or something prevented me from dying, and I became super sick instead. After a week of being sick, I wasn’t completely better now that I fell back into past habits. When my freshman year started, I was in the same state life just wasn’t getting better. Everything began to be violent and prevalent, including cutting and depression. The world felt as though it has been just a mere dream and I felt like nothing that had happened the past two years was real. I wanted the calling me frumpy to stop and my best friend to come …show more content…
This time I failed due to my fragile state. Sophomore year began and I finally had a truly genuine, friend. I still cut, had depression, suicidal thoughts, was anorexic, and teased. Finally, I began to come out of that state and I knew it would be a long road and a hard travel to do so. I finally told my parents after three and a half years but I refused to go to counseling. So we packed up and moved for me and the job opportunity my father took.
The rest of my sophomore year I was trying my hardest to eat well and not cut. Then, I made a friend and he referred me to a scripture that changed my life forever. Alma 38:5, which reads, “And now my son, Shiblon, I would that ye should remember, that as much as ye shall put your trust in God even so much ye shall be delivered out of your trials, and your troubles, and your afflictions, and ye shall be lifted up at the last day.” I read it so it was specifically talking to me and I then realized praying to the Lord was helpful and if we do all we are to do the Lord would bless