Shortly after graduating from college I started a real estate corporation with a business associate. Business came easily to me. I became an accomplished real estate investor and created a successful real estate financial cash flow building machine. During this period of my real estate investment career which also included some of my younger years, I became aware of having “acted out” the following six contrived inauthentic behaviors and paradigms :
POSITIVE THINKING
I created a euphoric or fake wonderful and positive world view about almost everything. This euphoric world view was unrealistic and manifested numerous inauthentic expressions, expectations and behaviors within me.
SENSUAL AND EMOTIONAL
I expressed exaggerated sensual …show more content…
This journey spanned over two decades of participating in week nights, weekend seminars, workshops, encounter groups and courses with approximately 100 or so different organizations and groups. This extensive inquiry of engaging in transformational courses empowered my fervent desire and vision that I had at a very young age to discover what makes “human beings tick”.
In addition, I created and participated in numerous intense Mastermind Empowerment Groups to obtain deeper insights along my path of introspection and transformational inquiries.
During this expanded period of my transformational inquiry I was able to identify and cease many of my past based unconscious reactive issues. However, much to my dismay, two major reactive issues remained incomplete. These two major reactive issues diminished my energy, power and true authentic Self Expression. They prevented me from being all that I had intended to be in my life. The first issue was effective extemporaneous public speaking and the second issue was my incessant complaining and nagging relationship that I had with my father.
ISSUE NUMBER ONE: EXTEMPORANEOUS PUBLIC …show more content…
During the speech my heart was pounding and racing out of control and the palm of my hands sweated nonstop. My speech during that night was disjointed, lacked consistent flow and a sense of confidence. I communicated to the instructor of how extremely nervous I was. I had a sense of fear that suddenly came over me before and during my speech. The instructor than advised me to change the context of my relationship to nervousness and fear and use my nervous energy as a positive force. I was to come back the following week by “making nervousness my empowering friend”. He suggested that instead of me trying to remove, resist or repress my nervousness and fear, that I change the context of my relationship to my nervousness. I was to change my context from a negative to a positive empowering tool and force. I was to use my nervous energy as an asset of empowerment to provide enthusiasm, excitement, motivation and inspiration to my speeches. The idea of shifting the context of my relationship to nervousness and fear to empowering my speeches seemed ridiculous to me and a waste of my time, but I was willing to give the advice and suggestions of the instructor a