I had failed to raise enough money in order to attend a Discipleship school in Norway which would allow me to grow deeper in my faith in God and serve as a missionary across the nations---A dream I had been holding in my heart for over a year, that I was so certain was my destiny. With the abrupt change of plans, I had to quickly enroll in community college, find a second job, and begin to figure out what in the world my purpose was apart from the plans I had made. Each week I worked up to 45 hours at two jobs and battled my way through 17 units at Foothill College, all the while feeling that my purpose had been stolen from me. I took classes that taught of Baroque Music and diatonic scale degrees, rather than Biblical Truth and knowledge of the Lord. I served coffee in a Starbucks rather than the needy in a third world country. The road I was on felt miniscule compared to what it should have been. I doubted the faithfulness of God for months, and as I continued to watch the dreams of my fellow graduates come true while mine laid in ashes, I doubted His existence
I had failed to raise enough money in order to attend a Discipleship school in Norway which would allow me to grow deeper in my faith in God and serve as a missionary across the nations---A dream I had been holding in my heart for over a year, that I was so certain was my destiny. With the abrupt change of plans, I had to quickly enroll in community college, find a second job, and begin to figure out what in the world my purpose was apart from the plans I had made. Each week I worked up to 45 hours at two jobs and battled my way through 17 units at Foothill College, all the while feeling that my purpose had been stolen from me. I took classes that taught of Baroque Music and diatonic scale degrees, rather than Biblical Truth and knowledge of the Lord. I served coffee in a Starbucks rather than the needy in a third world country. The road I was on felt miniscule compared to what it should have been. I doubted the faithfulness of God for months, and as I continued to watch the dreams of my fellow graduates come true while mine laid in ashes, I doubted His existence